hello

it's always so awkward to post the first blog. lol

i never capitalize or punctuate because word document for windows has taught me to do so because they fix everything for you as you type... so i may be lazy. This is the highest form of therapy for me. I cant always express myself with words by speech, but i can by writing which is why i am writing all the time. I have always blogged and written all of my thoughts. Mostly in diaries to imaginary people who i would complain to and hate on people. haha, i hated my life as a teenager and writing in a diary to Cleo and then to Stella really did help me to cope with everything. After i finished those books and could no longer think of any other psychics names, i started blogging to God and actually telling a REAL person my problems, thoughts and feelings. i have never written the same way. You dont tell God that you hate your mom or your family, and by blogging to God, i get a responce to the things i write. It's much better. There is a different perspective.

With all of my writings over my life, and how i have found comfort in it, i have developed a desire to write a book in my lifetime. Not about anything specific, but about life. It would be my biggest blog ever. I have learned a lot in my short life, maybe more than i should have because of my choices in life, but i have learned hard lessons that i wish to pass on.

things i hate:

• ignorance
• cattyness
• most girls
• money
• being cold
• stinky people
• dirty bed sheets
• my mom's truck
• full time office jobs

things i love:

• food
• my ds
• intellectual discussions
• my family
• my journals
• bible
• music
• concerts
• clothes
• hair color